I wrote this today when I was at work and feeling a little scatter brained. It took me about two minutes. I hardly could keep up with my brain spitting out words to type.

my head is racing i’ve got a clash of brains
running into each other and i don’t know
i don’t know where you’re going
you keep telling me but i keep forgetting
i’m sorry i’m sorry for my mind running pushing
phasing crazing jumping leaping stopping and reversing
you called out to me that day and you told me you wanted something
and i can’t remember I can’t hold on
but i want to and i think
but there i go i’ve lost it
i can’t stay with it i’ve got my own ryhthym
and its stopping and it starting its going through the motions
its planting the seads its crazing the house
its going off and mowing other peoples lawns
while my head is just right here spinning inside my skull
jumping forward where my body can’t go and where I can’t let it go
taking that leap and jumping years ahead something comforting and perfect
as I see it and I know thats not reality
its not the place you’ll see but its safe
its controlled
its not life but
it makes me feel better
it makes feel
it makes me read
it makes me fantasize
it makes me move
it makes me go out and I don’t know
I’ve lost it I can’t seem to focus.
The focus on the bearing I’m dodging myself
and i’m dodging you and i’m dodging the ball
the point
the places
the cold crass coalesce of a piece of metal
splitting the skin as it rips through you

but where was I
its not quite clear
its not quite focused
its a little off
but perfect.